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Mar 6, 2004

==>>SoNg FoR u To SeT u FrEe<<==

Before I Let You Go
Freestyle

I can still remember yesterday
We were so in love in a special way
Knowing that you love me made me feel oh so right

But now I feel lost don't know what to do
Each and everyday I think of you
Holding back the tears I'm crying here on my mind

Because you've gone and let me standing all alone
And I know I've got to face tomorrow on my own
But baby before I let you go
I want to say I love you

I know that you're listening
Coz it's true, ooh baby
You'll be forever in my heart
And I know that no one else will do
But before I let you go
I want to say, I love you

I wish that it could be just like before
I know that I could have given you so much more
Eventhough I know I've given you all my love

I miss you smile, I miss your kiss
Each and everday I really miss
Coz baby it's you that I'm always dreamin' of

Because you've gone and let me standing all alone
And I know I've got to face tomorrow on my own
But baby before I let you go
I want to say I love you

I hope that you're listening
Coz it's true, ooh baby
You'll be forever in my heart
And I know that no one else will do
But before I let you go
I want to say

Coz letting you go is never easy
And I love you so that's why I set you free
Coz I know, someday somehow I'll find a way
To leave it all behind me
I guess it wasn't ment to be but baby

Before I let you go
I want to say I love you

I hope that you're listening
Coz it's true, ooh baby
You'll be forever in my heart
And I know that no one else will do, yeah yeah
But before I let you go
I want to say, I love you

Damn this song really really hit me..idonnow it juz hurt me like fuck.damn iono wut to do..well it happenz den it happens.. i cant do anothing about dat nmore...i guess am going to be a nun for the rest of my life..am really really tired of this crap.. fawk shyt!!my fukin life.. why why??what da hellz!!! damn its okie.. nways, am here in Ormoc!! yea! my home place.. damn finally for 5 yerz i nevah been here,..i really miss this place so much especially the family.. And yea.. Happy Happy Birthday my grandma!which u the best and hope many many more birthdays to home. just remember dat am always here to take care of u.. and am very happy to see u here!!!i know dat its not easy to be in ur place right now but just remember dat we are always here to love and support u for the best.. and yea.. i juz try my best for you. But anyways...... Today!!! everybody was traumatize that am here in Ormoc.. nobody knows dats am here .. like my cousin were like.. "Damn is dat Mayce.. they got traumatize seeing me.. its horrible..terribly loooking at me, especially my grandma was like "my beautiful grand daughter" so yea! we have dat party for my grandma, its fun to be with the family again but in my other hand am still being lost and sad.. and regretting everything...but ya, am very sorry for wut i did.i know its not right... so dats the song for u.. i kno dat i have this song in the cd i let u burn.. okay??? but anways, i cant believe dat dey were shock dat am here..hehehe its really funny too!!1 they cant believe its me becoz they nevah see me for 5 yers and half.. they were hugging me and everything but my cousins been asking me of wats up with me with the mood but den i juz pretend dat nothing happends to be so i juz let it flow so dat i can make dem happy and so dat they arenot going to be asking me of wut happen and everything. But am very thankful for them to cheer me up during the party.. damn i finally got the pineapple..whoa!! yummy!!taste so good.. am like inlove with it.. hehehehe.. and my grandma is crying for the joy dat am there for her becoz she remember before i went to US, am the one who takes care of her everyday,am the one who sleep with her other bed n the same room becoz i dont want nothing happen to her.. i love her so much in my life.. i dont want her to let go to me... Anyways, thats it for now.. i dont kno wut to say and i havent sleep yet til yesterday.. so today.. imma juz try to sleep.. so g-nyt everyone!!!!!! And Tracy!! i need to talk to u!!! but i think he already told u..but stil girl.go online sometimes.. use my pc or something so dat we can chat.. Have fun at skol this monday.. and pm me if ur online okay??

Posted at 09:08 am by PnAyBeAuTeY
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Mar 5, 2004

*~*ThE RiGhT TiMe To SaY GooD-ByE!!!*~*

{:}HoW mUcH wELL i ReALLy KnOw AbOuT yOu{:}

1. My name: Alvin*Vince* Cacdac
2. Where did we meet?: Online >>>yahhooo<<<<
3. Whats my middle name:sorry!u neva tell me
4. How long have you known me?:like 3 months
5. How well do you know me (a lot, not so much, nothing)?:yea!!!so!so
6. Do I smoke?: yeah!YoShI TiME =got dat word from u!
7. Whats my favourite colour?:its depends to wat kind of thing! into cars is RED! shirts= gray
8. When you first saw me what was your first impression?:iono cozi cant really c it coz i didnt wear my glasses..sorry!!
9. My age?: 25+... u nevah tell me!ooppss!!!
10. My birthday?:neva tell me dat either..
11. Color Hair?: black
12. Color eyes?: coffeee brown
13. Have you ever had a crush on me? go ask urself and u should kno da answer
14. Have you ever been jealous of me? yeh!!!!
15. Whats one of my fav things to do indoors?:fix computers and watch tv!
16. Do you remember the first things I said to you when we first met? hi ate mayce!
17. Whats my fav type of music?:u listen to any kind!
18.Whats one of my fav things to do outdoors?: race, jet skiing!
19. Am I shy or outgoing? heheh can be both!
20.Would you say I'm funny HAHA or funny (sarcastic)?:funny haha *u makes me laugh*
21. Am I a rebel or do I follow the rules?:are you??do you???hehehee *winks*
22. Would you consider me a friend?: naw!!!more dan dat!!!ooppss!!!!
23. Would you call me preppy, slutty, average, sporty, punk, hippie, glam, snobby, or something else?: my kuya!!!!
24. Have you ever seen me cry?: yeh!!!sorry to make u cry!!!
25. If there were one good nickname for me, what would it be? my kuya!!!
26. Are my parents still together?:yeh of course!
27. Do I have a nice butt?:hahahhaha!!!!wutta question!!!
28. If I had broccoli stuck on my teeth, would you tell me?: yea!! why not right??
29. Do you love me?: of course i do but i dont think u believe me

AM I:

31. Quiet or loud?: Quiet and Average
31. Short or Tall: Just the right tallness for me
32.Weird or original: original
33. Smart or stupid? Smart!! u hs graduated wen u were 16!
34. Boring or Fun? Fun!!!=makes me laugh=
35. Attractive or Unattractive? Attractive to me DO YOU THINK I'M... (yes or no, if u wanna say something extra say it): yea to me u are!!
36.A psycho? yea bout computers
38.Athlethic? ye..jet skiing!!yo da best!
39. A nerd? ye bout computerz:::sigh:::
40. A slut? naw!!never!!! juz dont be gay..lolz..jk!
41. Ghetto? naw!!!! ur kool!!
42. A bitch? never!!!ur not a gurl!! ::sigh::
43. Two-faced? wutta pak!!!waz dat suppose to mean?!
44. Obnoxious?naw!!!
45. Immature? sometimes if ur with me,just for me to smile :)
46. Mature? yeh!! very! especially with relationship!

JUST A FEW MORE QUESTIONS

47. What do you think I'll be when I grow up? u r grown up already.. wut u toking all bout!!but i know dat your going to marry the gurl gal to be forever in ur life dat would never hurt u..!
48. Do you think I'll get married? yeh someday!! so juz wait for right time!it would take a lil bit a while but juz wait and it would be worth for u!
B) If you do, Who do you think I'll marry? a gurl dat its really right for you!!!that would be very thoughtful, honest and sharing with problems..to whom that u can trust and to be believe in with..and dat would care for u and the family..
49. When is my birthday? didnt u asked me dat already????
50. Who is my best friend? nevah tell me!!JC??iono!am sorry!
51. What song(if any)reminds you of me? south borders- Love of my life~because i remember the time u called me and i was singing dat song and u told me dat i need to wear a lose bra in order for me to sing right..
52. Do I remind you of any characters on TV? iono!!! i dun watch tv!!!!
53. If you could rename me, what would my name be? Vince!!!! my kuya!
54. Have you ever had a dream about me?ye!!! dat u would never talk to me anymore ever again in ur life.. dat u ignore me!!!and i think its going to be true!!!but its okie..i think its good for us..
55. A feature that you like about me: personality!!!
56. If you could give me anything, what would it be? Love!!! but i dont know if u still can feel it..that u will never believe and trust me anymore..its okie!!
57. Algo que me caracterice?huh?? wut ish dat mean??????
58. Am I physically ugly, average, decent, good-looking, beautiful, hot? average..good-looking for me
59. Would you ever consider being my boyfriend / girlfriend or even best friend? yeh u were but happen juz happends and we cannot go back and i dont think u still want me..so am sorry for everything!!!
60.Do you ever think about me off-line? ye wen u found out about today!!that hurts u so bad! and am so sorry for that...
61. If we spent a day together..where would we go and what would we do? we already did and i would never forget that.. that would always keep here in my heart!!
62. If you could describe me in one word, what would it be? great personality
63. Do you or have you ever had a crush on me? ask yo self and u should know by now!
64. What word do I say all the time? i like you mayce!!!
65.Favorite Quotation: "When we love someone we never easily give up on dat person, even if we get hurt badly. We'll find a way to ease da pain n` learn to understand n forgive. That's What we call "LUV"
65. Is there anything youd like to say to me? yeah!!! many words to tell you!!! lets start it here.. about today.. am very sorry of wut u juz found out about me!! yeah i know am a playah or cheater..anything u wanna kol me.. a Big Slut!!! its okie.. and i know dat for the fact that iam... i know dat i didnt really have time to tell youeverything of whats been happening to me.. and am so sorry dat i keep my words to myself!!! Since dat happens now! i know for the fact dat u dont believe me or trust me anymore... and as u know dat its really my fault dat i didnt tell u this before.. why am i so blind and dumb for not telling u this??? am so sorry... i know dat u were traumatize wen u saw and know about this..and am really really sorry for that.. its just da dumb thing i did to you.. and the truth is dat.. my problems go with my family that they always hook me up for the family fwends becoz its kinda like a bet..and i dont want my parents to get mad at me and everything so i juz did it like watever and everything.. am sorry.. dats my problem dat i always cry for dat u even wants to help me but now it shows.am so sorry.. and me dat i dont want nobody can help it.. dats why i dont wanna tell you becoz i dont want u to be heart broken and i did this to say yes to u becoz i juz dont wanna lose u.. u give me hope and fear.. u make me laugh!! and am always feel free wenever am with u by ur side.. i dont know why but i juz can feel it.and i didnt know dat am going to fall inlove with u ..as we both promise not to fall inlove but we did..and its not our fault to fall inlove with something and break the promise....i know dat my life is very hard right now dat i dont even know how to deal with it anymore.. i been hurt too much a lot of pain especially with my parents.. but i guess u hab to know me well b4 we get together.. i know its very wrong!!! juz dat u dont know me dat well.. u juz known me for 2 to 3 months and dats it.. i should have tell u everythingg!!1 and am very sorry for that.. i think i juz fall inlove in the wrong place...its just not time for me to be fall inlove but shyt!!! why love??? why??? it just better to end my life like this.. am very to hurt u.. with all those pain.. and i even promise u to not to heart u anymore becoz u been hurt a lot of times and u dont wanna get hurt nmore.. and look at this now???? i hurt u badly!!! more badly dat some people could ever be...but y?? am not the right person to be with.. am not even worth it.. u may think dat iam but to tell u the truth..am not.. am sorry!!! am juz a SIMPLE GIRL and just being me..mayce..mylife!!!!and i think dat we are not realy mean to be together... i know dat sucks and watever u say.. i dont believe u .. becoz i know dat ur juz pretending dat ur not hating me.. but u r..i know dat..i can feel dat inside ur heart but u juz dont want to show it.. i know dat we both love each other but things just happen and we cannot go back from the time we just had b4.. all those sweet time dat we had..the time we share to each other.. the fun time..the laughter...dat u always me laugh... i would never forget and regret everything dat we did. and i would never never ever would forget that..... but before i let u go..i just want to say am very sorry of the happening and i tot we really mean to each other but i guess dat this is the only the time dat i could tell u straight up and am very sorry ddat i cant tell u this infront of ur face.. and ya as i promise u not to hhurt u but i did.and i dont want u to be hurt more and more becoz of me.. i want to ease ur pain in ur heart.. its really my fault.and just remember dat i dont want to let u go but am juz letting u go so dat i cant hurt u anymore as i already promise not to hurt u...about the ring dat u gave me....dont worry about it.. i will promise to give it to u back..imma let tracy to give it to you okay???dont worry about it..its handle with care for me here and wen i go back there imma let tracy give u the ring,pendant... and the payment for my pc.why tracy??? becoz am really ashamed of you what wut did i juz do to hurt u!!!am embarrased to see u knowing dat i hurt u badly deep inside!!!!so..juz dont do stupid stuff coz its not worth to do dat juz for me.but i will be sooner becoz i kno dat ur worth for me... and just remember dat.. i still love u and im going to MISS everything all about u and me especially to you.. i hope dat u will meet da right gurl for u!!!!and juz stay with the best.thenkz for everythinggg....and good luck for everything..take care always..god bless.... bbyyeee!!!!!!*i know u dont wanna hear me saying byyyee.. but i think this is really the time i have to say it..i dont ker if u hate it but i have to and am very sorry... bbbbbbyyyyyyyyyyyyyyeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!

Posted at 09:08 am by PnAyBeAuTeY
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Mar 4, 2004

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Babey!! why are u now so far away from me??? We already have share everything and remember the time dat i was there with u.. to spend time with u and to be there in ur side.. wat happening now?? why am here??? is this a punishment or is this a trial between us??? wats up with this?? but ya ish okie that as long as u love me and i love u!!!! and we would trust each other so that our relationship would work!! i love u so much babey and nobdy can stop me!!! i love you so much Vince!!!!!!mmwaaahh!!!!

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Hmmpp!! wat i did today ish just go online and just waiting for my babey to go online.. and i just found out about this payge which ish cooler dan my other blog entry page.. i like this one.. hehhee.. i got too much things to play around..lolz. but ya.. today we went to buy ticket to go to Ormoc, which is my homeplace.. a place to be for me.. the very clean place.. hehe.. i cant wait to go there to see my grandma.. and tomorrow *saturday* ish her birthday... its funney becoz nobody knows dat am going there except for my brother Jun2x.. iono its going to be excitement tomorrow becoz am going to see all of my cousinz and my moms family.. am just a surprise person there.. hehehee.. but ya.. i would like to dedicate advance happy birthday to my grandmother.. i wub u so much and i miss u becoz its been 5 yerz i never see u til tomorrow.. i cant wait to see her.. but ya!! yet am still sad becoz am missing my babey boo Vince.. its sucks dat he cant kol me yet... becoz muh mommmaa ish still here.. i have to wait til she is going back to L.A.. DAMN!!! i wish i can go with her back to LA so dat i can spend time with my baby.. but ya.. i promise my babey dat am going back there.. i dont ker if they get mad at me.. hehehehee.. am going to be adult in dat time nways.. hehehee.. and ya.. i miss u too Tracy (my very bestfriend).. damn i wish am going to be there this monday at skol..lol. no more joker ha.. its okie..dont worry..am going back there soon.. hehehe. well anyways.. dats it foh now.. i dunno wut to say anymore..lolz.. u take care .. i love u and miss u my babey vince..mmwah!

Posted at 02:05 am by PnAyBeAuTeY
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